I’ve been hearing all kinds of homophobic bullshit since I’ve been here. It’s pretty obvious that I’ gay, but my room mates don’t bother ME about it, they just bother eachother about which one of them is gay.
I’ve met some other gay guys here: Donta is from Raleigh, NC and I never would have known he was gay if he hadn’t told me. He wants me and Deven to meet up with him & his boyfriend when we get back. Carlos is just a creeper, like his goal is to get me and Donta to cheat on our boyfriends with each other or some bullshit.
I came here to study business/clerical work, but they’re trying to get me to do some hands on shit like carpentry, welding, electrical, cement laying, or painting. The fuck I look like doing any of that type of bullshit??? I’m not made for hard labor at fucking all!! I refuse to do any of that shit.
But this guy is waiting for me to get off his computer so I g2g!!! Ttyl
Church has always been a major institution in Black Culture
But Where do black gay and lesbian people go who believe in God with all their heart when we’re not welcome in our churches? Where do we go to be nurtured and to express our faith? Where do we go for forgiveness? Do we put our faith in a box like some of our people used to do with their money because they didn’t trust the bank?
When I had nothing, I had God. And God never made me feel like shit for who I was or what I did. Ever. So don’t fucking tell me God hates me. Because if God hated me, She surely would have let me die by my own hand when I tried. Don’t fucking tell me that I don’t deserve to be loved or to be happy because YOU don’t like something about me. I didn’t ask for life but by God, I will live it.
I’m going to Flatwoods Job Corps in Coeburn, VA. The town has a population of like 1,996 and it’s like 2.81% black. So there’s a possibility that I may get lynched by the klan. I was supposed to study Business Clerical, but that class was full, so I might have to study Carpentry, Masonry, Welding, or Masonry. What the fuck I look like doing ANY of that shit???
I’m most excited that I’m going by plane, lol, I’ve never been on a plane.